Still living the nocturnal lifestyle, but managing to get a lot of stuff done. I was going to push myself to stay awake yesterday for some of the daylight hours. I got so tired before the sun even came up. I dozed off in the middle of reading that 'Dictionary of Superstitions' book I have been reading. The book is an alphabetic listing with a write up on various things which have superstitions associated with them. The relationship between magick and superstition make reading this book an endeavor which should prove useful at some stage in my life. I haven't got it all pieced together exactly, but I do love learning about the various correspondences in magick. I am trying to commit so much information to memory half the time, and I wonder actually how much of the reading actually sinks in.
But, I am truly pleased about how I have been able to work through my goals. I just have to learn to stop stalling on some of the less pleasant ones. Well, actually my sleep schedule has made it rather inconvenient for me to get around to doing some of the stuff I've been putting off. I have all kinds of work for my internet church, Church of the Infernal, which I am far behind on. On a positive note, I have been contributing to my blog on my website with a greater frequency. It's just that I have been procrastinating on several other tasks. A young lad from Kenya wants to become a member and I haven't responded yet. I should try to get a newsletter out on a weekly basis, but it slips my mind often enough. The website needs a ton of work and has been sitting on the back burner for years.
But, I have a life with a lot of different goals. I have to take care of my own basic needs and I do my little soft drink and cigarette business out of my room. Haven't been getting a lot of money from that. The pot dealer came to my door desperate for money and had a good deal to offer me. I had just been out shopping the day before. We practically cleaned out my whole coin jar counting up to 20 dollars. And, I've been more conservative about the amount of weed I've been smoking now that I have switched to smoking in a pipe rather than rolling joints all the time. I might go out and get more rolling papers just to have them, but I think I'm going to stick to using my pipe from now on.
So, I have been having money slowly trickle back in and am just hoping to have enough to pick up my photographs from Shopper's Drug Mart. They still haven't called and it's taking them forever to develop those pictures. There are pictures from 2 of our Satanist Meet-Ups and I have been eager to post them for everybody to see. They just haven't come back yet. I am also eager to see photographs of myself so I can get an idea of how I should change my image in the months to come. I don't think I'm going to be doing anything drastic to my looks. Probably will only want to touch up my roots once they get to be longer and more noticeable. Could probably use some new clothes.
It's not that easy living off of disability. Can't just go out and buy what I want to get when I want it. I always have to wait for a bit of money to come in. I always have to prioritize my spending and figure out what I need first. For instance, I could use a new toothbrush, but when you have little bits of cash coming in you don't want to go out and spend $10 on an electric toothbrush. I have just be using a manual toothbrush and the bristles are beginning to get a bit worn. So many things on my shopping lists and it is usually impossible to buy everything I want.
I thought I might want to learn how to make jewelry so I will have another source of income and sell some stuff off. It all goes slowly around here. All I have done so far is start to collect some beads and read some information on the web. But, that's more stuff to buy right there. Wire, cord, pliers, and fasteners and stuff. Lots of stuff to get when I have so many hobbies I dabble in.
I should get more berries and try to make up more wine. But, that can always wait. Lots of things can wait until later. That is all for some point in the future. Today I am going to try to get some other things done. I've got plenty of ideas of what to do with my day. There are plenty of empty beer cans to return. I could go to the food bank. Need to try putting that seat lock on my bike and see if there is any air in my tires. Lots of things to do.
But, I have some magick I want to work on first. Before I started this writing I cleaned off the marble slab I use as my altar. I've been studying some stuff to do with Samhain this evening and I want to go through my cupboards and begin pulling out herbs. I have made a list of 10 herbs associated with Samhain that I have in my cupboard. I want to make an oil and an incense. I also want to find all of the gemstones I have associated with Samhain in my possession and set them on the altar. And there was more astrology stuff to study. Time all goes well enough along. I've just been systematically going through all my task lists for a couple of days. Should run the numbers and see how much further ahead I've gotten. And, I also should start planning for Yule. It's not far away.
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